BLAH!

So anyone that has been around me in the past year or two know that I haven't been feeling my best...Stress, lack of sleep, who knows? Usually that stuff goes away right?
I got to see Dr. Rauh (the best Dr. ever!) about 3 weeks ago and he decided we should probably figure out what in the world is going on. Why do I feel like I am 90 years old?! Not that there is anything wrong with being 90. I just don't want to feel like it when I'm 30! So, I kindly donated 8 viles of my precious blood to the lab guy (the one I don't like!) Now I really don't like him! After waiting 3 weeks to get my results (seems to be the normal time it takes to get test results around here!) I found out that I have Lupus (for information go to lupus.org) Considering the things he tested me for, I feel fairly lucky. It still sucks and it's not going to be a picnic but if I can get it under control now, then we might be able to have another baby someday. Lupus makes pregnancy and delivery very difficult (explains why Avery came out 5 weeks early weighing 4lbs 12 Oz's!) The other thing I'm really sad about is that it can be dangerous to receive massage which you all know I LOVE! Brooke kindly offered to receive my massages for me.... thanks...alot...So I am asking for lots of prayer and I just want you all to know I love you very much and thank you for helping me through the past 2 years which have been the hardest years of my life. Hey, now we have an answer right?! It could always be worse!! I'm very thankful right now. I am also scared...... but hopeful too! Lot's of emotions going on! Also please pray that Avery doesn't get this, it can be hereditary.
Love you all,
Mandi